Easy for good girls to go bad

and once [they]'ve gone

best believe [they]'ve gone forever

don't be the reason, don't be the reason

you better learn how to treat [them] right

'cause once a good girl goes bad

[They] die forever

Above is an extract from Rihanna's song, "Good Girl Gone Bad". This extract tells us, boys, to learn how to treat girls right. This is quite true as boys especially from an all-boy schools USUALLY cannot treat girls right. I'm not being sexist or feminist here but girls are just different from boys physically as well as mentally. From the book I recently read, it's said that boys tend not to use their hearts but brains to treat people. Some boys may be proud that they use their brains more than their feelings (if they have any) because it goes to show that they are real "men" or just simply have brains. Girls, on the other hands, use their feelings more. This “mismatch” of preference of communication can usually lead to one party being irritated. Girls forgive but not forget. That's what I learn from my female friends. Once they feel irritated by boys, they will not forget what has happened even though they have forgiven the people who irritate them. The feeling of irritation can surface anytime (I guess) as they cannot forget the incident. Yes, girls tend to remember even minute details of an incident (this is based from the book I read). So don't try to irritate girls in anyway as they may hate you forever. So we as boys have to learn to use our feelings or learn to acquire one to face girls. We might never know whether or not we have hurt girls' feelings. However, we can't possibly show this side of “gentlemen-ness” every time. We all live in a world which men are most of the time defined as tough species and are superior to women. If we exhibit our “tamer” side too much, we might be considered as effeminate or something like that. This is what most men are scared of. They might feel losing their pride of having little brothers. That's why, it's difficult to be what girls consider as gentlemen. We might have tried our best to aspire to be gentlemen but social pressure just can't let us to be what every girl might dream of. Boys who treat girls nicely even though not so often should be appreciated. They have tried to break the barrier to treat girls right. Yeah, we should be appreciated instead of demanded to show those values that our society consider as girls' values.

There are many things that have changed in my life since the start of this year. The changes may not be apparent to you all but to me they are very obvious. The most significant one is that I' becoming lamer and lamer. I think It's not caused by the injury that I had last year (i.e. broke my right leg). It's something else. Perhaps it's a “side effect” of implanting metal bar in my bone or maybe it's a nerve system problem. I don't know. Sometimes I feel annoyed that I can't be as “normal” as other people. Should I go to see a specialist to consult my problem? Or should I just bear with it? What I have in mind is that I shouldn't go to see any specialist. Last year I told myself that I'm strong enough to handle this and I don't want to trouble anybody around me. I think this lame thing is just a small and insignificant problem. I should just keep it to myself.

But recently, many people start to notice this problem of mine. Most of the time I'll just give them “I dunno” as the answer for their questions regarding my lameness. “I dunno” is the best answer I can give so far. Well, how can I answer them if I myself don't know what caused me to become lamer than last year. Well, I think I should stop minding this thing. I don't think it will do me any harm. I think this problem will disappear soon.

Oh btw, I wasn't talking about this kind of lame.

But the kind that you probably have in mind when you read the title of this post. Anyway, this whole blog is supposed to be lame. So is this post. =P